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Jamie Dodger ([personal profile] smokedout) wrote in [personal profile] flowlikewater 2018-03-05 05:11 am (UTC)

[Dodger nods quietly.]

Up at the top, there was just me and Augustine. And I figure he would've stabbed me in the back the moment I stopped being useful. I wasn't family, y'know, I was just... convenient. Helpful. He took me in when no one else cared, I owed him whatever he asked. It was kinda romantic.

[He glances at Genji, before returning his gaze to the river.]

Every once in a while, I meet someone that sees some good in me. And I always end up using them and throwing them aside, but sometimes they stick around anyway. And it was... nice, knowing Shigeru would be there waiting for me whenever I dragged myself out of some alleyway after a bad fight. But it's empty. And it hurts him. It's just being alone, with another person next to me.

[He grimaces.]

I never felt bad for hurting someone until I came here. But I've been taking things that are perfect and- crushing them. By being me. Shigeru isn't the only person I hurt that badly, not by... a long shot. I thought I just wasn't built for being good, but it wouldn't hurt me if I didn't care, right?

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